goodbye.

Things have been getting from bloody unbearable to worse. You think that people who love you wouldn’t hurt you right? Wrong. Sometimes those who love you the most can hurt you the worst. No one is spared from pain. No matter how hard you try. The only way you won’t feel pain is when you die. Even then, a whole different place awaits you and you don’t even know what lies ahead.

But I’d give anything; I swear anything, to leave. Leave this stupid country. Leave my condescending family. Leave my career. Leave the pain, the suffering, the humiliation. Leave the emotional baggage behind.

Give me a good reason why I should even stay? There’s no reason for me to stay. No reason at all. Not even one. I want to find my life somewhere else. Start anew. On my own. Anything will be better than staying here. Call it ego. Whatever. I wanna leave. For good.

I'm calculating what's left inside me.