My Sanity.

Sometimes I doubt the thoughts in my own head,
Disassembling a perfect puzzle of what I feel and see,

And approving of the uncertainties in my heart,

As though there is another person living inside of me,

It immoralizes this highly perplexed soul,

The complete opposite of a clear conscience,

It sucks my sanity through a growing hole.

p.s: 'a bunch of BLOBS!'

'in here, you decide'

The workdays were propping the terminal quietly erasing the week and I was at the very end thinking about the possibility of one to love unconditionally and the words that drive into the ground their repetition starts to thin their meaning. Then everything got frighteningly still as they entered and intersected the floor and I tried to choke my stare at the perfection that others would kill for. But all of the parts are the same on every face. The differences pale when compared to the similarities they share. Finally there is clarity and there is purpose after all, but every night ends the same as I'm collapsing once more by your side. Finally there is clarity: This tiny life is making sense, and every drop numbs the both of us, but I alone am staggering.

Finally, after months of avoidance, I relented into watching Twillight. I bawled like a baby in the ending. It was soooo romantic! And Edward Cullen's superbly, irresistably HOT HOT HOT! Alas, this movie tells me to keep my emotions that has run askew in check. -_-

Difficulties might not stop,
Things may not get easier.

sigh.

maybe,now or foreverrrrrrrrrr

Maybe we're holding on too tightly,

Maybe we need a little space in between our feet,

Maybe we need to let go of these locked fingers,

Maybe just for a little while,

Maybe only sometimes,

But definitely we need to realise,

That even if our hands do not touch,

Our hearts will always be,

Like a binded story book,

A biography of us two,

Pages with no end.

-----<3

We spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future. As if figuring it out will somehow cushion the blow, but the future is always changing. The future is the home of our deepest fears and our wildest hopes. But one thing is certain, when it finally reveals itself, the future is never the way we imagined it.

X

Embrace the time you have now, because you never know when it will be taken away from you. Treasure the ones you love and especially those who love you because you never know when you're gonna lose them. Live everyday like it is your last, without regrets. Because in reality, we all don't have much time left. We still need to learn, we need to love and we need to live.

We still need to fall down a thousand more times before we really learn. We have to dust ourselves off, stand up and try yet again. We have to taste failure a hundred more times before we get to taste success. We have to feel loss so we know how to treasure the ones that we still have. We need to die a little to really live. Because it's not about having everything be perfect, the best we can do is put together all the little things that matter. Remember the good over the bad. Making them count more than all the bad stuff. And then we have faith that we'll get through it.

X

Did you say it? I love you. I don’t ever wanna live without you. You changed my life. Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it. But every now and then, look around. Drink it in. Cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.

rocksttarrzzzzzzzzz

We're the party Celebutantes.

hertz (acoustic show - 090509)

smashhiing!

c'mon play;

This organ thumps with every touch,

Forcing life through my veins,

Crack open this skull and liberate thinking,

Just like an amnesiac's memory,

Make me remember nothing,

Break my ribs and eradicate expiration,

I will breathe once covered in dirt,

You have the last of me in your hands,

Release, finish, decease,

I want you to bury this heart.

How many wrongs make a right?
I've learned to listen through the silence. What's left unspoken is what needs to be heard. Often, what's left unsaid, is the most dangerous of all. There is no innocence, just reticence. Love has two equal parts, as a prey, there is no excuse. No one fancies being used, and one day it's gonna get back to you. Predicability is your flaw. This is merely a masquerade and two can play this game.