Its Not Always Rainbows And Butterflies.

When will these kind of people ever learn? It's fair enough to say that people make mistakes. Once is understandable, but if you do it more than once?It's called stupidity. Plain and simple. Telling you to grow up will just be a waste of my time because seeing as how at your age, you still have yet to reach that level of maturity that is usually associated with people who are within your age range? That is just sad. My deepest sympathy goes out to you, and your fellow comrades.

I just don't understand the deal with people who think that the world revolves around them. You keep thinking and over-analyzing on the words of others, worrying to death that they are talking about you when they probably aren't. Gosh, aren't you so full of yourself? And the irony is that, seeing as how you are so god damn full of yourself, you still aren't contented. Enjoy this state of delusion while you can, it won't be long till the fog clears up and you're left with absolutely nothing.

The lollipop shoes has taught me one thing. That thing that you thought had created a rift, is in fact the glue that binds. It just crossed boundaries, created bridges and all that hurt, just combined and brought you closer than you think you were. The act of separation was just like a rubber band, pulled tightly apart and when you let go, you snap right back where you started.

It's frustrating to know how some people are just so fucking oblivious to everything else but themselves. It's like living in a bubble, everything looks so nice and every thing's floating but you forget what happens if that bubble bursts and you fall flat on your stupid face. And I think you should fall flat on your stupid face. It's one thing to be oblivious, it's another thing to be delusional as well. I mean, come on. Could you get any stupider? But then again, you cannot possibly be any stupider than you already are right now because you are the epitome of Stupid. And that is not something to be proud about.

You are obviously no threat to me but your very existence just irks me. You think that everything revolves around you. Newsflash girl, the world revolves on its own axis, not around you. Now isn't that unnerving?

Don't generalize us and assume shit about us because that's as far as my limit goes. Cross that and you're dead. Better watch your back and your mouth aye? Or else you'll end up with your face on the floor faster than you can flutter your fake eyelashes.The day you were born into this world, you gave a face to the word of stupidity.

Maybe it's wise not to look up to the sky directly when the sun is right above your head. That glare just might cloud your vision to see the beautiful things clearly. Aye?

love lost

My friend and I were talking the other day about the famous quote “Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.” My friend said she would rather have never loved, and I said I would rather have loved and lost. I told her in one of my best emo lines ever “I would rather have loved and lost, because to have never loved, would feel as if my life was incomplete.”

To love is an essential of life in my opinion. It seems all of life is about love, in one form or another. To go through life without love, would be to not live at all. If I never was to have a serious relationship, I would feel as if I was missing out on a vital part of life. Being deeply in love with someone, changes your life. It is dangerous to put your emotions on the line, with the possibility of ultimate failure and rejection, but if it is the one that you truly love, it makes it ultimately worthwhile. Even if my love was likely to fail, I would still pursue it, for that small sliver of hope I possessed. Even in death, love would make life worthwhile.

Loss is another essential of life. It is impossible to live life without the threat and experience of loss. Everyone has, in one form or another, experienced loss, some deeper than others. Everyone, at one time or another will experience loss, around them and on a personal level. Loss causes the heart to weep, but it’s an unavoidable part of life. Ultimately, to love means to lose, for even if you are together for all your life, one of you will still eventually die, leaving the other behind. Yet, loss is a matter of perspective. Have you truly lost, to live a life with love? Have you lost, to never take the risk of love?

So when I hear the quote “Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all” I think the writer of that, actually meant, to not have loved, would essentially be loss in the end, therefore it would be better to have loved and lost than to live life without love. Loss and love are two essentials of life, both are necessary for life and both cannot be had, without the other.

absolutely sickk.

i need a brreak.

4 MAY, come quick! I can already smell Patong beach!

i wanna dive in the Indian Ocean.

i wanna seafood everyy meal.

i wanna island hop, swim in the blue clear water with the fishes amongst coral reefs.

i wanna sleep and tan on the upper deck of the speedboat.

i wanna be free.

aand i said,

Sometimes belief is deliberate self-deceit.
You trick your mind into believing something.
And it doesn't even matter if the truth clearly defies it.

breaking point???

I'm emotionally,physically and mentaly drained!

Work has been hectic and for the first time ever I'm heavy hearted to work. Running away may seem like a cowardly thing to do, but sometimes we are left with no choice. Life gets so hard and unbearable that we keep facing the same things over and over again, regardless of how many times we've resolved it. It just keeps coming back to haunt us.

Running away doesn't necessarily mean that we're cowards but maybe we choose to run away because we're tired of going through the same motions everyday and not getting any further in life. The problems, the setbacks and the seemingly impossible challenges that we face, just seem too much, too mundane and too unbearable. That's when we decide we want a new lease of life. A chance to start anew. A clean slate. To go somewhere where no one knows us and how we were before we got there. A chance to rebuild ourselves and our lives.

Who could resist an opportunity like that? I know I couldn't. I just want to give myself a chance to prove to myself that I can get somewhere on my own, survive and succeed. I owe it that much to myself to at least try. If only money wasn't a problem, I would buy the first plane ticket out of here.

In this world where patience lacks,
I'm just trying to make everything closer to right.

faith.

My faith is here to stay,
If you believe in it every single day,
It's following me to my grave,
Everything's going to be okay,
Our hearts will be safe,
Believe in what I have to say,
For our hope is our shadow today.

The past has its fingernails stuck to our necks,
It hurts so much but we tell ourselves,
Don't look back,
Keep our minds set on the future,
Don't we go dare go off track.

Nobody told me a trail of regrets would follow as I was moving forward.

a wonderful journey (Swissport Singapore)

Life's not about setting boundaries. It's about pushing yourself to the utmost limits to see how well you can handle it, not how you break under the pressure. Most people run away from unfamiliarity, strange things and problems. It's human nature, you say. But I beg to differ. I think the most remarkable humans are the ones that stay on despite the sting of unfamiliarity. Despite the unknown, the instability and the pain of the hurt that is yet to come. Not content with just knowing what they can handle, but pushing themselves to venture into the unknown even if it might just hurt them. All the while knowing the consequences of their actions that might take a toll on their lives. Wrong decisions are made every single day by everyone of us.

We decide to quit when the going gets tough. We decide to run away whenever we get scared. We refuse to give other's a chance when all the while, we've been begging for one. We refuse to see the bigger picture for what it really is simply because we're scared of the truth. We're scared that we might see something we don't want to. We're scared that we might hear what we don't want to. Most of all, we're scared to have to face something that we don't have the answer or solution to.

Those who run along and face the unknown,they're what I would call remarkably brave.

If there's a crisis you don't freeze. You move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward. Because you've seen worse. You've survived worse. And you know, we'll survive too.

Thank you for the wonderful memories. It has been a pleasurable journey (Feb 2006-Mar 2009).