elusive me ?

'You took everything good and painted it red.'

It's true what they say about 2nd chances and people. 2nd chances don't matter and people never change.

Why am I harbouring these feelings?? I need a break, from EVERYTHING.

I need to do something. Anything. I feel my faith weakening and its scaring me. When I see blue skies, I think about the dark, looming clouds which are inevitable. When I see a rainbow, I think, it's only a trick of light. When I look at flowers, I think of how people would pick them and take them home and leave them to die in vases of water.

Help.