pronto.

You're just like a bruise, it hurts and leaves a mark.

I'm resisting the urge to sulk. I'm just having a bout of down-time.

I'm just sick and tired of the pretend pursuit. I never thought my judgment of someone's character could be so off the charts. My erring judgment clouded my reasoning skills. I thought I knew you, seems like you proved me wrong. No wait .. I guess I proved you wrong.

I wish I could have someone console me the way it seems so easy to console a 5 year old who's crying. I wish you could console me and tell me everything's going to be alright and hug me tight. I wish it was really that easy to make me happier.

When deep injury is done to us, we never recover until we forgive. Forgiveness does not change the past. But it does enlarge the future.

Hence, will you forgive me?

hold on to this.

I shouldn't look back anymore.

According to Meredith Grey, "The Unexpected is what changes our lives forever".

This is particularly true, to myself anyways. You can't always expect everything to go according to plan, and usually when things don't go according to plan, it goes wrong. But what if that wrong thing happens to be the right thing? The thing that you just need, right at the wrong time. That's when it changes your life forever. I plan to try my best to stop all my unhealthy and harmful addictions because it no longer gives me pleasure or happiness. In fact, it's hindering my happiness and preventing me from finding what I really need. So here's to change. The Unexpected Change.

I badly need the beach.