luck, no?

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the most decisive actions of our life -- I mean those that are most likely to decide the whole course of our future -- are, more often than not, unconsidered.

like every girls, I dream of rainbows and butterflies ..
then I got farking sick of it.

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen
the friendship of those who are throughout
persuaded of each others worth.

I'm not alone.

I'm finally beginning to have faith again.
Faith in Him and faith in myself.
It's the only way I can push myself back on the right path and move forward.
So I won't be stuck in this vicious downward spiral no more.

believe while others are doubting.

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." Eleanor Roosevelt

It's always "jump first, think later" for me. And it has landed me in shit-loads of trouble.

But I've gotten myself into the biggest and most magnificent scrape I could ever get myself into. Once found out, I'm mentally preparing myself for all outcomes imaginable, like being disowned or some things like that.

But I don't regret it. Dear God (this would sound like a most vile blasphemy, due to the nature of the scrape I'm in), I will never regret it. I was of sound mind when I got it, was not influenced by anyone, knew what I was getting myself into and acknowledge to bear the consequences when wind catches of this infamy.

Doing this for myself broke a dreary lull in life, the lack of spontaneity, the lack of bright blotches of color, the lack of a foray of spices to light up an otherwise languid life.

And I hope that others who are dear to me do not censure me as well. It will break my heart.

"So if you have a dream then just believe that you can achieve it no matter what. Even when you can't feel deep in your heart any words of encouragement, just believe in your dream and your heart will finally show you the way."
Shuchi Gupta, from Believe in Your Dreams and Yourself!

thankyou forgivingme faith.

Ultimately, throughout our life, we become either our own worst enemy or our own very best friend. This love or hate relationship is quietly inside each of us. This relationship with ourselves is affecting everything that we do, every thought we have and choice of actions we take, or don't take, daily. It is greatly linked to how we treat and love others in our life. This relationship with ourselves is always against our self progression or it is for it.

So which one am I becoming?

that all is well;

.. that all is well. All is going according to plan. Trust that there is a bigger picture. Trust that life is unfolding as it should.
You are stronger than you think you are. Don't forget that.

babypushpa : 9february10

desperate treachery.

I've always said that in politics, your enemies can't hurt you, but your friends will kill you.
(Ann Richards)

There can be no friendship without confidence, and no confidence without integrity.

(Samuel Johnson)

After going through several setbacks and challenges these past few years, I have learnt to choose my friends carefully. I have chosen the option of integrity instead of quantity. On the contrary, I used to have a large group of friends and acquaintances, online and in person. It was a carefree chapter of my life. I didn't know being friendly and having many connections would jeopardise my own well-being. Maybe what they say is true; as you grow older, you become wiser.

I quote myself: Trust is like a Wonder of the world. Most of the time, it takes years to build. A sturdy foundation is the best defence when facing disasters. Alas, a catastrophe may occur to demolish even the strongest of towers. This, speak through experience. - Amalia Suhaimi

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It doesn't matter if I don't have as many connections as I had before. I won't frown. It's a celebration for the people who've seen me at my worst. Those who had my back through the hardest part of my life. They are the ones that really matter. Future connections would be sincerely accepted if greatly deserved. It's not a matter of selfishness but a moral condition. To myself, and to the ones who truly deserve my friendship. Here's to my loved ones. I thank you.

And as for some people, integrity in friendship is what they have yet to fully acquire.

Thank you for reading.